Back to where we used to be.

Just saw a flashback in memories. Reading my private blog, found out how I used to treat people around me in the past. Great, now I've everything in return that I think I deserved it. I don't meant to play along with feelings but I did. I bring everything to myself, not to blame on anyone but me. Yijia, that caring Boyf I used to have in the past. He gave me everything he could, provided it's money or items. But I bastard him after days because of what he is . Perhaps, he is too good for me that I took him for granted. Girls are like this, people that treat you good, definitely take for granted but guys that bastard you, you'll be missing him all the time. Desmond , another caring boyf I used to have. He gave me everything he could, and he's a gentlemen. I once said I want the whole hello kitty collection, the other min he would ask which mac have it all and he went to look at all the mac at his house estate. I took him for granted either, broke off with him after a month cause I know he is not the one that can make me commit. Edmund, the one I am really in love with . I gave up everything just for him , see how important he is to me . I went all the way to vivo just to meet him for hours. He is the first boyf who hugged me and that moment really lingers til now. I don't deny I missed him after we broke up like month because I did something really stupid and dumb. Serve me right either , that's how life works. There's still others but not to list them all out, these 3 left me the most memories I could say. And now, it's you sweety. The one that get me in situation I shouldn't . the one I wanna spend my love with, I commit like I never before but end up I failed to earn your love. you go after the other someone instead . I felt hurt of course, and you know what ? The pain still lingers til now, it's been a month. I tried to escape from reality all the time whenever I heard something bout you or regrading her. seriously i misses every moment with you around me . Your kisses, your hug, your sweet words, your smell, your hair and actually your everything. If only time would to turn back. Sorry that I loved you.

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