Oh, did you?

we've been contacting pretty much recently, but suddenly you turned cold against me. What happened? I know we shouldn't be contacting because you're attached but you're the one that says after break up we could be friends. Is it because of your girlf or is it because you doesn't want to. It's really breaking my heart alot. I want to find back myself, the one I used to be not what people wanted me to be. I've no regrets being with you but breaking up with you, you taught me to change. You courses me pain and I'd changed for better but fuck when I changed, you're already gone. I hate myself for those mistake i've made in the past. okay, it doesn't matter anymore. If you're not gonna text me up I don't think I would because what if you don't reply and ignored? I'll land myself into a shithole again, feeling shity and stuff so what's the point. Gosh, I think problem lies on me, shouldn't had fallen so hard for it. Please god, if you don't plan to let me have him, please let him be far away from me. I don't want to fall back into his arm! ohya, to the one that treated me the best, my family loves you the most. Please wake up your idea, you told people you wanted me back then prove to me. I want you to change, change to a better someone. Change to someone I can trust my whole life with , change to someone sensible enough to takecare of me. Never touch those stuff again, never break the law again. Please do some reflection while you're inside now, I willing to wait. Wait for your return , wait for your changes. Don't let my waiting turn out to be disappointment. I TRUST YOU! Darling, takecare of yourself inside.

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