What hurts the most , is being so close.

Gosh! It's been ages since i last posted on my deary blog. Ohkay, just realize something that i've left school for 7 months already which mean i've been working at Alps for 7 months already. Wow, time passes by really fast. Felt that i just left school for a month only. This week , shop renovating so decided to go Genting/KL on tuesday night with my colleagues . Staying @ First world Hotel but i heard that there's alot of .... in it. How to spend my days over there, really wondered. I'm not worried as long as there's someone in the room with me when i am showering and sleeping. Alright, recently life's felt so empty. Don't know why either, maybe i spend most of my time working instead of doing anything else. Many things run through my mind recently, afraid will be a simple and nice word for me to use. Afraid that friends would betray, afraid the same thing were to happen twice. Once bitten shy on you , twice bitten shy on me . This sentence was right, the biggest fear in my life wouldn't be anything else other than betray by the person who is either use to be real close with you or the one who is close with you. Why must it be so unfair to let me pass through all this unhappy stuffs. I wish i could throw every unhappiness away and only have the good memories. And times, thing don't go in my way. I hope for a better day everyday , hope that i could spend the next day differently. But can i really fulfill it without trying? Just one wish, is it really so hard to give ?