Everyone do have a secret, i'd respect if its a secret,
its meant to be between two person.
Well, you break that trust i have in you , accepted you as a friend,
telling you how i feel not regardless of him but "S" not to caught between the two of us
and in the end what i've got for myself? I landed myself up into another horrible feelings.
And I always thought that love is not one-sided ,
one-sided love will only make people felt miserable,
so if my loves one don't love me and will definitely be better off without me,
i will let go and i did.
No matter how many times you had hurt me, i forgive and forget.
I never expected this day to come when you called me a fat-bitch ?
You know what's the feeling ?
Its like you took a knife and cut yourself open ,
yes that's how painful i am feeling now.
Sorry if you think that i had ruined your life and i am the cause of it.
Many things are awaiting for a explanation to know the truth.
I took the first step to ask you what's going on, i'll not hide anything from you.
But you asked me back what i said to her?
Yah, at that moment i asked myself : Wtf i said to her!
Did i said anything wrongly? I don't blame her but myself.
I felt damn fucked up not because of her having you rather than me.
Its because you doubt me, you doubt what i am saying.
This hurt more than anything for sure,
someone you like doubt you and your words .
I said i can show you the whole conversation of me and her and you said forget it.
What's this? Spare a thought for my feelings, i don't think i deserve all these.
I just want to clear all the doubts, thats all i ask for.
Conversation between me and her :
if these words from me is a mistake and you think because of this i ruined your life, blame on me then, i've got nothing to say.
Me : Always remember this : "If you like someone, please keep your hands off and don't mess with another one. If you wanna mess with another one, you will only hurt another someone." Thanks for messing my fucking life up . i don't want s to be between us or what . Never go and blame her or anything she told me actually nothing much either. And You don't have to fucking feel anything or awkward when you see me. I'll still smile to you like the past, like we first know each other. Treat someone that adores you well seriously.
Her: I know what is going on All I can say is is that really a wrong to be friends with him? Is this messing up your life? I can 100% assure you I will never like him. I never blame serene. It's just I feel a little unfair that you dislike me just cuz of him.. I tried to smile at you ytd. But no I dont want any pretend if you dislike me I can understand afterall I'm a girl as well. And I never mess with anyone. Neither do I wanna hurt someone. If I hurt you in a way sorry. I can cut off my friendship with him it's ok.
Me: No , Its never to be wrong for being a friend with him. You sort of came in the situation and mess my life up , yes you did to be honest. I never dislike you cause of him and i didn't have the intention to dislike you either. The hurt don't came from you and you don't have to cut off friendship with him . I'm not those kind of bitch who they can't what they want and perish together. You don't have to worry i'll dislike you, i don't dislike you. I told serene before , yes you won't like him , but doesn't mean you can't make him like you and you succeeded in this point.
Her : I know but I didn't purposely make him to love me neither can I control what he is feeling. I didn't wanna be third party or sort of that. He's merely purely my friend at least to me he is. I'm sorry I hurt you in a way. If you don't want me to stop my f/s with him then what do you want me to do to make you better? I don't want us to be like enemy or stranger or even in awkward situation.
Me: No, you don't have to do anything to make me feel better or what that's silly ? My life is still moving on and we are still friends. Just let it be the same way , please don't not end any friendship with him. He like you, just cherish what you have got. He's a nice guy though.
Her: Sorry you got it all wrong. I dont like him. He's nice as a friend. I hope we are still friend:)
Me: I know you don't like him, wht I am telling you is to cherish him no matter as a friend or what. Who knows maybe one day you will be with him. Life's like this. :)
Her: Ya ok dont worry me and him are still friend But i wont text him anymore. :)
Me: Noooooooooo. Please carry on and text him
Her: Ok when you not Cherie Verysad anymore. Maybe You become Cherie Veryhappy
Me: Noooooooooo. If you don't text him, I won't be happy for sure . Please text him like the past. Just take it as doing me a favour can ?
Her: :( I dont know how to face you alr i mean not guiltiness is like waraozzzzzzzz nvm. I will anything you say,Anything that make you happy.
Me: Face me like the past, don't worry. Text him already, just text happily with him. Don't take it because I say, you two are friends am I right to say that ? Friends should text each other
Her : Alright. Cheer up ^^
