Dearest Blog.

I've no one to talk to now, you are my dearest blog , you are my second best friend. Anyway , not many read my blog , so no point private it either. I'm so fucking stress up with so many thing , so goddamn many! I gave up on him already , after seeing what he posted on fb for the other girl but not me . Not as slim as her , not as pretty as her ! I'm not defeated by others , but myself! I gave up , i lose , its a game over. .You'll be apart of my memories for sure , thanks for those weeks you really make my day , i swear ! Why am my sister friend's so stupid , always giving me non-stop trouble ! i'm stress enough already , yet these add on to it even more . I really gave up already , i may be strong outside but i'm weaker than anyone can be , trust me , please stop everything . I wanna get drunk to forget everything , but that's for a moment only . When i wake up , i still have to face all these shit in my life , i scare one day i may just cant take it , and gone insane . I really don't know what i would do if that day arrived , but i can sense its sooner or later only . It's happening really soon , tearing here and typing words by words . My elder sister and Mother care for me , they tell me never put it too hard , that's make me feel like continue crying , since ages i didn't fucking tears . Clarine Besty called me , talk to me , she's always here for me , she said i collected my tears for long and its time to release it . People you'll never really see the happy cherie smiling from her bottom heart but the one putting on the fake smile. Mark my words .