Had a quarrel with fatboy days ago... Pretend to be happy just to prove him wrong , really disappointed because of small issue that isnt my fault at all... Always blaming me and avoid me .... Actually .... Is it necessary at all? Why are we acting like this? I don't know what I am feeling right now anymore .... Definitely not myself anymore .... I feel upset, I am afraid we might just end this way which I never want to... I feel so helpless right now , I couldn't stop filling my mind with your faces and our problem ... I am hurting , I feel pain .... You are that grey within black and white in my life , I didn't want you to leave .... Sigh ... Really feel meaningless in everything I am doing right now .... Couldn't express out how I really feel because I doesn't want to feel lousy at all ....
